I really really wish you were here dad. I really really wish my children had their grandad who loves them so much here to tell them how special they are. Their other grandad is such an ignorant blind sighted man that even as Lucy made him a beautiful cake for his birthday, he didn't even acknowledge it's existence! He didn't do the candles, didn't cut it, didn't try it. I know you would say that that does not surprise you. We all know how strangely focused he is on his daughters family! I am so angry with them dad. I really really wish you were here. I miss you so much. I LOVE YOU. X