I was trying to delete a loads of emails today.I came across one from 2009. You were so depressed. So upset with me because you thought I wasn't doing enough for you, that I was angry with you. It hurt daddy. I always hated you getting so depressed. I never knew what to do, but I ALWAYS ALWAYS loved you so much. I hope I didn't let you down too much daddy. I cannot tell you how much I miss you. It still takes me by surpise sometimes that I will never see you again. I miss you so much. Every day. Love you my daddy. xxxxx